Have you ever felt so alone that even with the presence of everyone in crowd, you still feel really spaced out, and left out?
I feel incredibly sad right now…
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Hello there!
This day started really, really early. I woke up by 7am to pee but I didn’t really felt sleepy so I went downstairs, ate fruits and watched various dance tutorials. I think I’m just gonna settle with Judas as I’ve known that dance for ages. I mean I pick it as my audition piece. After that, I checked my internet accounts and took a nap. My alarm woke me up in a kinda bad way. To tell you the truth, I can’t really remember if I really stopped the alarm or not. Anyway, after that, I ate breakfast, and prepared to go to school.
Earlier, I had this cool experience at the jeepney. For people outside Philippines, jeepneys are a common ride here, the chairs are situated like in trains and it’s like an ordinary bus, no air-condition and the windows are open, really, really wide. Anyway, there’s this song by Yeng Constatino, it’s called Jeepney Lovestory and it’s about, obviously, a love story formed in a jeepney. I sat with someone cute earlier. And it’s really awesome. We got to touch each others hand by the money the other passengers wants us to reach. Anyway, it’s just too awesome for words. Sadly, at the part of the song where the guy arrives at his destination, that’s what happened to me too. I just took a long glance as the jeepney sped away.
At school, I felt really alone. You know how you have people or friends to talk to but for some unknown reasons, you feel incredibly alone. It’s like someone will talk to me but they’ll shift their attention away immediately. I haven’t talked to anyone that exceeded 5 minutes today and it makes me really sad. Plus on the shuttle service on the way home, I have to sit on the floor as every sit is full. It was just horrible. Good thing I have my pear and I ate it to recuperate as I walk home.
As soon as arriving home, my brother told me to cook rice, which I did and I hurried to my room. I broke down. I needed that. Then I took a nap. I woke up as the combination of lightning and thunder terrified the crap out of me and I just lay there in bed and feel awfully depressed. And yeah, I felt rejected as my friends told me that my idea for my story about the protagonist having amnesia is so cliche. If they only knew how my story differs from others. It’s not boy-meets-girl, it’s about boy-meets-world-and-messes-everything-up-especially-after-an-accident. Everything about this day especially at school was depressing for me. I can’t believe I went through this day with a fake smile on my face.
That was my day. A little too destructive for me. I hope you had the complete opposite of my day. Thank you so much for reading this.
And I’ve never seen you in like forever. My friends all have seen you, it’s only me that didn’t have the chance. Why am I sad? I asked for this right? Well, I actually didn’t mean it. Sigh. Anyway, stay beautiful and happy. Keep on rocking, and I hope to see you soon. I need something to keep me holding on…
Everything is just fvcked up in my life right now. I’m really sorry if my post saddened you or something.
catching yourself singing a song you’re supposed to hate
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Lady Gaga - Paparazzi (No Beats, Backing Vocals, and Backing Synths)
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- me: this is a bad idea and will only make me sad
- me: okay let's do it
That annoying moment when your friends make it obvious that you like your crush.
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do you ever want to slap yourself in the face because you know you should be doing something productive but instead you choose to sit in front of a laptop for hours on end doing shit that has no beneficial impact on your life and this just happens day after day after day and still you refuse to accept the fact that you have a problem
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